blue christmas

i'm just not feeling it. christmas spirit is definately lacking this year. i'm just not in the spirit. anyone who knows me well knows that i love christmas and look forward to spending time with family, seeing old friends and just love the music and the love that the holiday brings. not this year. mom and i put up the tree the other nite (which is normally done on december 1st at least) and i just couldn't get in the mood. i don't listen to my christmas music.. i haven't even finished my shopping and none of my gifts are wrapped. my cards are addressed, but are still sitting on my dresser, and i just don't feel the spirit of the holiday.. anyone else feel like this? i just don't know how to snap out of it. my older brother and his gf and george will be home this year.. i am excited about seeing them, but nothing else. why am i so grinchy? :(