bad day...

bad days are the absolute worst... started off today by almost cutting my thumb off.. ok, slight exaggeration, but i did do a good job at cutting it.. then it just got worse from there... i'm not gonna get into details cause it just makes me angrier thinking about it.... then i came home, packed some more boxes and just stood in my kitchen thinking and just started bawling.. then i kept getting phone calls from people that just made me feel worse.. i know that they called to make me feel better but i just ended up crying harder. i just wish that i was all moved now and outta this place.. sometimes i just have rough days and today was just the worst one in a long time..... now i'm gonna try to get some sleep and just see if tomorrow is any better

last one promise... but it's brooks & dunn! :)

alan jackson!

these ones turned out a little blurry, but i'm gettin some sent to me from one of the girls i work with and she was a lot closer than me and she said hers turned out wicked, so i might change em lata!

again with the concert...

can't see her very good, but the top one is Casey LeBlanc from Nackawic, and the bottom one is Jimmy Rankin... he was really good.. he's really short though!! :)

this one is Sugarland.. didn't know alot of their songs but i have heard them before... the guy in the white hat was.. well.. he was nice to look at!! :)

concert con't

here are some crowd pics... i didn't even get all directions but you get the idea as to how many people there were! up at the top of magnetic hill there was a steady stream of people coming into the site all day long...

40,000+... rockin the hill!!

keep checkin in over the next couple of days and i'll get more pics loaded up... i took alot of pics so i gotta go through em all!!



the concert goers-> cheryl, mike, me, patria and shawn


those transports in the background are the brooks & dunn trucks!!!!!!
(fyi -> if you click on the pics, you can see them at their full size)

fate

so i went to church today at hillside in moncton and there was a comedian there named tim hildebrand. i had a great weekend (which i will post later, as this was much more important) but it was the words that he shared in his testimony that touched me more than anything has before. he was supposed to come to hillside in february, but due to a family emergency, couldn't come and rescheduled for today. i had been down for "country rocks the hill" and i wanted to go to church since i hadn't been there in over a year and wanted to see my small group and see everyone that i had gotten to know over the 8 years i attended the church. he did a stand-up routine which was sooo funny and then gave a testimony. 8 years ago, he lost his parents and went through a divorce all within about 3 1/2 weeks of each other. he explained that he detached himself from God.. didn't want anything to do with religion... anything. well... God was good to him and he just felt the need to begin reading his bible again and flipped it open and just did a "finger point" to a verse... ( i know it was in isaiah, but i can't remember the chapter or verse, and if anyone who was there knows, can you please leave a comment!) and he just felt the presence of God so strongly at that moment, and he basically rededicated his life to God. his testimony of what he was going through at that time is such a mirror to my own life right at this time that i was just broken, and i know that God laid all those events in place to have me there at hillside this morning to be able to hear what tim had to say. I didn't do a finger point verse find, but i did feel the biggest leading from God to read Job.... he went through so much and didn't curse God.. didn't turn away from him... whenever i think of my troubles and all my heartaches, i'm now turning my thoughts to the chapters of job and thinking, well if he can go through all that and not turn away from God, then i can make it through my rough times and be able to lean on God and give him all my cares..... I felt so moved by tim's testimony i talked to him after and filled him in on a few details of my situation and he just said to me "you'll make it.. it's not easy, but there is a light. it took me a couple years, it's different for everyone, but i can honestly say that i'm happy now" then he said he would pray for me and i thanked him for coming and sharing his words and i told him of how i hadn't been to hillside in over a year, and it was just coincidence that i was there this sunday and that it was something i needed to hear and i wanted to tell him that i appreciated him sharing his story. he had told us that it wasn't something that he normally did and he broke down a couple of times talking about his parents and his falling away/coming back to God... i just wanted to share how much i had been touched by his story and although the title for my blog is "fate", it should be "hand of God".......

unexpected surprise

k, it just took me like 5 whole minutes to figure out how to spell surprise... anyways... back to my unexpected surprise. sarah and trevor flynn called me the other nite (for those of you who don't know them.. they are from mcadam and i graduated with them) and they were coming up to fredericton the next day and wanted to pop over.. and the best part.. sarah just had a baby about a month ago (July 21) and i was going to get to see him for the first time!! his name is sean patrick flynn, and he made me be late for work (only a minute) and i loved every second he was here!

he is just too cute... looks like trevor more than sarah i think but babies will change in their looks as they get older anyway, but i loved having him here, and oh, the best part... I'm "auntie mir"... love it!!
he's just so relaxed in this pic.. love it!

reminders...

Genesis 9: 12-16

God continued, "this is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and everything living around you and everyone living after you. I'm putting my rainbow in the clouds, a sign of the covenant between me and the Earth. Form now on, when I form a cloud over the earth and a rainbow appears in the cloud, I'll remember my covenant between me and you and everything living, that never again will floodwaters destroy all life. When the rainbow appears in the cloud, I'll see it and remember the eternal covenant between God and everything living, every last living creature on Earth."

big juicy melons

the backyard at my mom and dad's house has been transformed into a canteloupe, watermelon and pumpkin patch this summer.. george and one of his friends had this big idea to have a contest to see who could grow the biggest pumpkin/watermelon this summer.. well george, being the ceo of the family and master delegator, gave the task to my mom and she's been growing them for him in the backyard... i don't know how matt's plants are doing, but all george wanted this summer was "big juicy melons" and i'm not quite sure if they'll survive, but they are well on their way!!

random again

ahhh.. just love that since my last post.. which was toooo long ago.. i have now added 3 new bloggers to the list. i just love it. ok, so i just hope that it doesn't become a habit that i say something in my blog.. it being a way to keep accountable and then not find the time to do it... that just isn't good. if i can find time to watch tv, i can find time to blog and send out prayer requests... ok, so now i need everyone to keep me accountable.. sound good?!
anyways, so i just need to say that summer is the cutest baby and i just want to hold her and i wish i lived closer to b & k cause i'm just jealous and want to be around her! i just love babies and she seems like she's so sweet.. i talked to kris on the phone the other nite and she seems to be doing well and i could hear summer in the background and my heart just ached cause i just want to hold her for like a day and then i'd be good for a week or two at least! :) anyway.. i guess i'll settle for pics and stuff until i can get out to visit them... hope that's soon... or at least before she goes to school

here's today's prayer requests...
my time here at my apartment is wrapping up before i get moved (and for those who didn't know, i'm moving to mcadam) prayer would be greatly appreciated for travelling and getting settled in (i'm still working in freddy.... just a temp move)
for my grandparents... health.. my grampie broke his arm when he fell last week
i think that's it for now.. thanks everyone!

randomness

i just get slack! i haven't blogged for a long time... i've been on vacation for the last week.. that's my excuse... i'm gonna try to be better at it cause it's just so fun and i hate when other people take forever to blog and then i don't do it myself... good taste of my own medicine! i just want to get other people bloggin too cause i hate that my link list only has 2 names on it... i always look at other people's and i'm just jealous! it's fun to look at them.. see all the pics and see where everyone is.. what they're doin... how we're all connected, it's just great. I've decided on my blog to post a prayer request every time i'm on so that way people who read my blog can pass it on.. might not just be specifically for me, but it helps me to remember to pray for things cause i get so bad at it and i forget alot of the time, and keeps me accountable, and i can pray for each thing while i'm typing, so it's a good habit.
here's todays (there's more than one for today)---> for the things going on in the middle east,
for Kris and Bob as they prepare for the birth of their baby (if it hasn't already come yet), and for me, facing a new chapter in my life... alot of unanswered questions, and alot of uncertainty.

"you won't stumble in the dark if you walk in the light of God's word"

adventures in babysitting

i had sam this weekend while mike and cheryl went to a wedding... took him to the lake and we had a ball!! he loved the water.. he was tryin to splash everyone (even beamer) with buckets of water and i couldn't keep him out of the water! hahaha.. he jumped right in with his clothes on most of the time, then asked to get his bathing suit on!

last nite we had a campfire and made smores with mom and dad and it sure was sticky but sooooo good.. mmm love smores.







this morning i went to brush my teeth... it was probably around 9:15 and it was pretty chilly this morning, so i put pants on sam and tshirt, but went i came out of the camp he was down doing "canonballs" off the warf with his clothes on... he says "look at me branda.. cannon ballin in my pants!!" hahahah.. i roared

restless

sometimes i just feel like i'm swimming against the strongest current in the world.. you make a little headway and then boom, you're right back to where you started, or even worse, you're even further behind than when you first began... doesn't seem to be really fair... sometimes i just feel sooo restless and just crave change and something different for my life.. like picking up and moving to a new place...i just don't know.

the blue bomb

old car

"silver bullet"

new car
"blue bomb"

oh... america

jess and i headed down to bangor today for some shopping for craig's birthday... we really couldn't find what we wanted, so we had some fun shopping in other store... burlington coat factory... target... we ate lunch at denny's and got totally ripped off cause they have a 40% exchange rate year round.. plus the waitress didn't know what a twoonie was. anyways.. that was one expensive meal!



ummmm, yah.. that's a man's undershirt.. she tried it on..
goes down to her knees LOL





this coat goes right to the floor...
can you say skunk?














jess: "hahaha, you look like pepto bismal!"

carleton cruise

on sunday night we had the summer staff party for work on the carleton boat that cruises on the saint john river... we had pizza, wings and just some plain old junk food, but it was a good time and a wicked night to be out on the water!

kim and marty












matt and jess








kelly and chuck

picture perfect ending to an awesome day

sweet mother.... vacation!

ahhh... just lovin life right now cause i get to have a week off to do absolutely nothing... there's just nothing better than a hot sunny day at the lake.. surrounded by family and just knowing that you don't have to wake up to the annoying sound of an alarm clock for the next week... oh joyous bliss!

soooo tired

worked today.. did a 12 hour shift....
so sleepy.. first aid tomorrow and friday with alan
goin to bed now... |)

hmmmmmmn

where can i go from your spirit?
where can i flee from your presence?
if i go up to the heavens, you are there
if i make my bed in the depths, you are there
if i rise on the wings of the dawn

if i settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast
~psalm 139:10~